Pyramid of Hate Reflections Present In class

“I am not biased” Is what I thought at first, but I am only human so I have to be to a certain extent. My life has been interesting I have been exposed to diversity since childhood Born in India, early childhood in India, later life in Bahrain a beautiful Island in the Middle East, years back in India, and my adulthood in India, Libya, and USA. Wow that seems exhausting.

I think that thoughts and biases are the root cause of us to process information, and I feel that my parents laid a great foundation. But was it totally encompassing? Did it cover?-all- aspects of diversity? Are some of the questions I ask myself often, and the answer was very clear to me yesterday it was “no it did not” I know that was controlled by the limitations of where we lived, and all other aspects and components of life that skimmed my life so far.

I really feel I am not there at all, just at the tip of the ice berg to be explored, I accept negative information and do have latent biases and do stereotype, but have not acted or discriminated, at least not openly or consciously done so. I would like to change that and go as far as to rethink any bias thoughts “Just immediately rewind and think again” Just reformat my brain! I know that is what I am going to do with the information and choices I get in this training.

I know I am a motivator; I love to encourage people, and give them the push, tell them they can do anything they want. I do that I tell them to call me any time of the day or night if they want to talk to someone. I definitely want to think I am the powerful “gatekeeper”, and apply my thinking process as a leader, I know that I would definitely would have just let it pass, and chosen not to let any one know and let the lady live not because I applied my moral judgment! But I like to defy the system; I like to harmlessly break the law, is there is such a thing?

Now what I am not sure about myself is if was cornered what will I do?
Will I be consistent with evaluating my acts of discrimination?
I cannot believe I am saying this and it hurts to know that I have biases and I do stereotype, may be the degree varies, but I know I have to change that. I know I am a good person at heart. I enjoy people, and love to be around them and want to live and make a difference, not just live.
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